On my bicycle I knock over a ten year old boy outside his home. I take him inside to his father. The boy changes sex. The father sits quiet and passive. Another crash outside. Now the mother crawls into the house, covered in blood, the result of a more serious accident. Still the father sits unmoved posed like the statue of Abraham Lincoln.
Outside the college I see groups of naked people mingling with the clothed shoppers. It is a protest against hazing I am told. They are naked to show they have no bruises on their bodies.
We are watching a complex advertising campaign to promote milk drinking. Against a backdrop of singing cartoon cows, a sexy presenter pumps up balloons and throws them into the audience, "Here we go, kids!" Each balloon has a gun printed on it.
I have driven C's orange mini car to the top of this squatted building. Somehow with ropes and planks we now have to get it downstairs, before the builders demolish all the floors. It wasn't so hard to get it up here - it was a dream after all - so it should be easier than we think to bring it down.
The chief librarian, muffled in mohair tartan, points to the exit concealed behind panels of red velvet. We shuffle out along low corridors past monstrous insects. "The books are crap here, but we love these creatures, " he tells us. Outside on a rubbish tip, a mother suckles fully clothed human rats.
"Jan Leeming, you have one of those faces that can so easily turn into being one-eyed.
That's not necessarily offensive."
A long one-eyed woolly stick smashes its head inconsolably in the rubble of Dagenham Dock wasteland. Its one wish for Christmas is to stop the suffering of all children around the world.
A man with the head of a carved swede stands in a queue with his mouth wide open. He is pumped full of liquidised reconstituted chicken squeezed straight from the bottle .
Sue my former psychotherapist yawns as I play to her on the recorder. "I thought it would be a good idea to see you again," I explain. "...sometimes I feel a bit low...I feel I could just...not all the time of course...in fact often I feel fine...I mean...well...I'm on my own you see...Still."
After running a course at a college I have a long arduous journey home and get ready early. I look out of the window and see Dad has driven 160 miles to collect me. I am very touched that he has travelled so far and run down to embrace him.
"Look, I am not going to tell you that you should not express your religious convictions in your work," I say to a sullen student. "But there has to be an element of danger. It should be like the Devil tempting Christ in the wilderness. I want to see you battling it out. It has to be real."
I tell a young police officer that I saw an attack on a man on the Brixton to Streatham train. He laughs nervously, "Did he shit himself?" "He was bleeding,"I reply feeling helpless. "If he didn't shit himself I can't do anything about it," he says swinging his truncheon.
On a huge video billboard I see TJ the boy I was first in love with three decades ago. From his young brother I hear all about his life to date, that he is now a teacher on meagre wages. He omits to add that TJ is now a beautiful young woman.
Half way up a mountain I begin to speak my dream but it doesn't come across in the right way. I climb to the top of the mountain and from there I find a depth to my voice and the dream rings out strong and clear.
A snake's head is presented.
As each guest enters the party they are asked to dress a dummy as a famous icon and animate it. Ed wraps it in a sheet and it becomes a life size version of a Sindy doll. A woman with facial hair becomes a combination of George Sand and Eric Burden.
In the corner of a dark room is a glass fronted cupboard. I look inside for dream imagery. It is empty except for a model of a galleon on the top shelf.
My attention is drawn to a horror film which shows a huge animated house going on the rampage. Although it is causing terrible havoc it has an innocence about it like a scared King Kong. I ignore the call to watch this film claiming that I have seen it before.
We are required to write down our three worst features. In a ritualistic dance these negative statements materialise into a viscous black cloud that I am juggling in front of my eyes.
The air is thick with tiny frogs. I try to swat them before they land on my body.
Three men are here to listen to the pianist and clarinettist. My role is to turn pages, something I haven't done for years. By the second page I am completely lost and miss my queue. One of the men stops the procedings. He points to something on the bass clef line. "What note is this?" I am not sure...a "C"? "I thought as much," he says, "Please leave now."
We are driving through a thick forest along a track overgrown with weeds. Hazel tells us to duck when the branches are very low and we will be fine. I decide to ride on the roof of the car but soon regret it as I am wearing shorts and the stinging nettles whip my thighs.
As Nate (from Six Feet Under) dies, a dull photocopy of his image slowly shrinks away into the night sky. Sobbing crocodile tears I lie to some old acquaintances about the time of his death claiming that I have been in no fit state to visit them.
A TV documentary shows an old soap star reunited after ten years with his soap family of wife and three daughters. We watch as they drink to his real life adoption programme. Celebrations are premature as he has not yet been accepted by the authorities as a suitable parent.
I am undergoing an experimental police training programme which involves expressive movement. The superintendent (who used to be on The Bill) insists we all group hug and greet each other with a friendly kiss. I join in very reluctantly.
"We will be reviewing your pay," my employer says to me, "We have to make cuts." "But we run all kinds of exciting projects don't we?" I answer. "Speak up for me, Anne.""Well Robin," Anne replies hesitantly,"You can never replace Philippa...There I've said it... but you forced me to. You're too disorganised. You're no good as a manager."
I am looking for little discarded objects like buttons to draw. The visiting artist draws seeds. "Did you always make work that starts from such small basic elements?" I ask her, thinking that I am probably on the wrong track with my subject matter.
Once again I am waiting in the wings of a theatre. Because I had been so dismissive of this play in rehearsals I didn't learn my lines properly and now I can't remember what my lines are or when I go onstage. If I can only find them I am sure the rest will fall into place. I search frantically for the script.
It is a cold winter's day. Ian is taking me downstairs to an outdoor swimming pool. There are a lot of people about, dressed in warm clothes. I am completely naked.
I had expected never to see him again. He has returned as a young boy with an incurable mental illness which will grow steadily worse. There is no-one else to care for him. My heart sinks as I lie on the bed with him. The dead weight of his arm is heavy on my shoulder.
