Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Uncovering Forgotten Powers

I am in a huge builders merchants' yard. Workmen are milling around, busy on an important task - something has to be found out, uncovered.
I pick up a plastic bag with plumbing connections in it.
"Leave them alone," I am told, "don't want you meddling with that."
I just seem to be in the way.

Then I find a stack of old papers, all in handwriting that is not easy to decipher. It goes back years. I am convinced this has the answer to everything the men are searching for and I say to one of them,
"Let me look through these, I am sure I will find the truth here."  The men are a bit dismissive, they don't share my conviction but they are happy for me to take this dusty heap away.
As I start to look through it my heart sinks, there is so much there and it's really hard to read, I'll never get anywhere.

Slowly I begin to sift through the paperwork, writing down each tiny detail. A woman (about 30-35 with long straight hair) sits with me.
"Let's work out what this is all about. Someone's life is at stake- its about someone's life, a record." (I see an image of Beachy Head cliffs.) The documents seem to be about this woman.

Now I find pictures and objects within this pile of papers- there are three knitting needles, maybe 2'6"long,  and they are covered in knitted wool in soft,"feminine" pastel shades of flame. The needles remind me of bullfighting spikes or spears or something to do with electricity like lightning rods.

"This was the beginning - one of many projects that never led anywhere." The woman laughs and admits it was another fruitless project. (Am I slightly contemptuous of her? Do I think she doesn't have it in her to create anything deep, anything meaningful?)

There are receipts in this collection. She must have been working, she must have earnt this - sums like £320 and another for a bit less. Modest sums.
"Is there a date?" I ask the woman. We look and I arrange them in order.

The pictures I find are black and white newspaper cuttings collaged together and now a heap of old sepia family photos that I drop on the stone floor. I try to pick them up in order but muddle them a bit - never mind, I should be able to sort them out.

I am annoyed that I wake up before the puzzle is solved. There are pages of this novel, for that is what it is, that are maybe in german or russian.  (So many times I start a book only to give up because the language is too hard.) This will be difficult language to decode but I know I can and must do it.

This dream has been interpreted by three eminent Jungian analysists -  a very exciting process - the results of which can be viewed on Carla Young's excellent blogsite here.

Tuesday, July 03, 2012

Curious Case

I am on the outside 

or am I way down far far below looking up?

Friday, June 15, 2012

Russian Vine Disease

I go to the hospital ward. B is still there despite it being time for him to leave the bed. There are loads of people around.

So E should be next in the bed - he is typically nowhere to be seen- is he late or just not bothering to turn up? It's such a boring problem, his Russian Vine disease, I can hardly blame him, it's just one of those recurrent things, but you've got to keep on top of it.

Crotchet Drawing

C and I are making drawings of a piece of Elgar's music. My old french teacher Mr H pours us copious glasses of champagne and we feel deliriously happy.

Our ink is running out and Mr H is reluctant to give us any of his. He has an idea -  he will search for a later part of the music which will not require so much ink- I think he must mean that it has more minims and quavers rather than crotchets.

I secretly think that as he will be buying our drawings anyway he should give us his ink so we can get on with it.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Alan Turing Erotica

A paper covered in diagrams which reduce obscene erotic acts to mathematical formulae.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Basement Access

Because of the crazy driverless lorries, the pavements are no longer safe, and we are forced to walk along high ledges, parapets and rooves.

My shadowy partner is more fit than me jumping up athletically; I just can't do it.

We decide the other option is to travel through the city basements avoiding danger that way. A special booklet is provided which is like a kind of basement passport.

I don't think it will work - I am sure no-one will know what it is.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Poor Man's Meal

I eat off a plate piled high with baked potato, some indiscernible cabbage and a few baked beans.  There is a stack of three closed tins covered in a strange pattern reminiscent of the fabric design of London Tube seats. They are like a small pillar of precious metal looming out of this mound of too much potato.

Lairy Couple

I'm sitting in the luggage compartment of an old-fashioned train watching a mother and her teenage son playing together in the next carriage. They fight and he pulls a plastic bag down over her head. Their behaviour becomes more raucous and erotically charged. I realise she is not his mother but must be an older girlfriend.

Friday, June 08, 2012

Licking Llama

There is a pet llama licking my face.

Thursday, June 07, 2012

Modern Comedy Show

A comedy show - a typical clever-dick all male line-up except for one hidden woman. They are all about the same age 30 to 35 with thick blond hair. The audience laughs hysterically as they gurn together.

I don't think they are funny - I just don't get it.

They have no bodies - it is as if they are all conjoined.

Tuesday, June 05, 2012

Lost Suit

It's the second half of our show and I have so much to sort out during the interval.

The auditorium is filling up with people and I need my suit so that I can watch the show with Dad.

Backstage, in my underwear, I climb along awkward ledges and through complicated makeshift corridors but can't find anything or anyone to track it down.

Monday, June 04, 2012

In The Nick Of Time

A gang of us mates have been taken into a police station. I'm 17, a streak of piss, full of cheek. We're guilty of course - we'd just robbed this store - nothing much but I know the only evidence was in a B and Q receipt I had left in my wallet.

If the superintendent discovers this receipt I'll get banged up. I manage to drop it down the back of the chair. He hasn't noticed and now he's asked me to empty my pockets and he searches my wallet. He doesn't find anything but he still wants to put me in an overnight cell.

"You can't hold me," I say, "you've got no evidence."

And I get let out. I can't believe my luck.

Sunday, June 03, 2012

K Comes Back To Life Again

20 years after his death, K comes back to life again - it's all very real.

He always thought I was lazy and messy: 
he will start to spring clean, painting over old paintwork, cleaning out my drawers of rubbish and replacing it with his neatly folded socks. 

He will read my dream diary and see how he keeps coming back to life.  He will be disgusted at my lack of ambition.

Am I My Own Double?

They have produced an exact Double of myself and are sending it/him into all my usual haunts as a way of discovering highly explosive secret information.

Creeping into my dark hotel room I wonder if he has been here.

It suddenly occurs to me:

I wake up panicking.

Friday, May 25, 2012

The Itty-Bitty Teaspoon Divider

Someone talks about an idea to overcome cheating. They suggest I demonstrate accurate measurement by using a teaspoon with an itty-bitty divider.

I think it would work better if the divider were moveable.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

The Three Disgraces

1)    I haven't had time to learn the dance steps - I can't even see the other dancers to check that I am in time.

2)    I don't know any of the answers to the three questions on football.

3)    The final humiliation: I am left holding a bundle of dry twigs instead of a fine pair of antlers.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Missed Opportunity

If only I had a camera, I think, then I could show everyone just how stunning these button decorations look on my plastic storage trays.

There is never one to hand when you need it most.

Friday, May 11, 2012

Mystery of Choreography

I've got lots of questions for the Ballet Rambert choreographer:

Like where do they start?
Does he have an overall idea in mind?
Do they just dance around and see what happens?
How do they remember it?
Do they use notation? What does it look like?

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Running Scared

A terrifying chase sequence through dark woods. I'm not sure who is after me - a young man.

It started as a game.

I hide, my heart beating fast, in the shadow of a bush. I hear him rushing down and he stops in the same place or nearby.

Is it myself I am running from?

Wednesday, May 09, 2012

Scarey Rolf

Rolf Harris sings softly on Top of the Pops. His face is covered in hair and his mouth filled with white space.

Monday, May 07, 2012

Dangerous Assignation

After 20 years K has come back to life and has a romantic date with an Algerian soldier from the enemy camp.

K is nervous -  he knows it could also be a military trap.  He takes my mobile and a bottle of a substance called AMMO.   It is so thoughtless of him to take the mobile into such a risky environment. I am furious about it.

Sunday, May 06, 2012

Face Paint

As an "avant-garde" experiment I black up my face then sleep on it.
The next day I do the same with luminous yellow paint.

Despite being the only one to find it hilarious I am convinced this is radical progress.